Do you ever just have FEAR come out of no where?
If so you are not alone. I have found the feeling of fear is swiping over me more often then normal. It seems to remind me of the past. The choices I have made in the past or the things that have created issues in the end. I know that I should not let them rule my emotions. Yet some how they do. They effect my reactions and how I feel about myself.
An example of this is the fact that Joshua and I know that renting is only temporary. Yet some how exploring the option to buy something invokes Great fear. The fear of being house poor provokes fear. The thought of buying something that later does not work for Gracelyns needs causes fear. Yet I am trying hard to walk in faith as we start the process of buying a home.
I have also had a lot of fear surrounding the new school year for the Girls. We are moving Ava to the same school as Gracelyn. The fear of Gracelyn not having a Aid in her Classroom next year Fears me that she will be failed. I will fight till I have no fight left for my Kids.
These are just some of my Fears that creep in daily. No matter the fear if I let it control me I know that my day will be hard. But if I face fear and call on God to help I know that I am not alone.
